>how would you describe your relationship with your mom/dad/guardian
Good. I'm the kid with the most promise.
>when was the last time you cried and why
The last time I seriously really cried was my birthday when I turned 18 like a month ago. Got into an argument with my dad and he said something he meant innocuously but it hit me hard. I started thinking about shit and started to get worried that I'm just riding delusions of grandeur and coping.
>what's your favourite and least favourite feature of yourself; why
Who knows
I like a lot about myself I don't like that no one else seems to
I'm probably at my best when I'm least like me but I don't like that and the prospect of starting all over to pour my efforts into something that's not me sounds grating.
>do you smile at strangers
Usually out of anxiety
>how often do people (not family members) tell you they love you
Had a girl tell me that yesterday. Other than that never.
Should I have said it back?
>how is your life different now from two years ago
Two years ago I was in my sophomore year of high school. I had very few friends. Really two people I'd call my friends. I was very unhappy but I think i was getting a little better. A month before I had absolutely no one.
But at this time I was mostly just going home, watching british panel shows, and sleeping. It was comfy but overall incredibly unproductive.
I have two people I talk to outside of my family now, so the same. One's the same the other's a new girl. My best friend since middle school ditched me around new years. Not sure if he's coming back.
I think i'm better off and stronger than I was. I'm not sure whether it's self-esteem or delusion.
Fuck I write too much
To be continued
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