>tfw my bf puts very little emphasis on how good I am to him, and far more importance on flaws or mistakes that are either minor or completely imaginary
>tfw he holds grudges forever and brings up minor incidents from years ago whenever I make him angry
>tfw I feel as though I'm always walking on eggshells with him
>tfw he tells me that if I don't want to listen to a barrage of complaints and criticisms, I'm an avoidant that doesn't care about conflict resolution and only has a superficial level of care for others
>tfw I feel as though I can't share anything personal or sensitive with him because even if he acts kindly at the moment, he'll use things against me at a later date
>tfw arguing with him is stressful because he gaslights, strawmans, and is incredibly aggressive, yet makes me feel compelled to do so because otherwise I don't care about conflict resolution, am avoidant, and would rather leave him to stew in his own juices than try to make him feel better
>tfw I feel feverish and get a headache when I think he might be getting mad
>tfw during arguments he strikes at all my traumas and insecurities, but tells me I have no right to get mad because his tone is calm, more like a disappointed father than an angry psycho
>tfw
What do?
