The Feels Bar is open. Comment anything that is bothering you

>I stopped initiating and I haven't heard from anyone for a long time
i did this too, same happened.
its not like i cut ties, i just stopped asking people to hang out literally every day and everyone was fine with it.
by now i've realized how i merited such a response but i really wish i didn't have to learn it that way.

Yeah, shit is sad. Some of them even go:
>hey where have you been
>haven't heard from you in months

If you called me you'd know.

I'm a neet. I don't have a single irl friend and because of past experiences I'm too scared to be able to go to school. I try to escape reality by consuming stories out of books, games or music but the more stories I read the more depressed I get and the problems and fears of the characters and world I love become mine. If I read a sad story I can't get my mind out of it for months and it drags me down but it's still better to living my own life. I'm just too scared and I don't see any way of that changing for me in the future.

why cant you go back to school?

I used to get bullied nearly my entire time I went to school. I tried to go back but I get so bad panic attacks and bad thoughts over it that I would go to self-harm which I want to stay away from.

damn bro.
that sucks man

I just cut off my two only friends. One best friend the other just a "good" friend, shit was toxic and I would constantly do shit for them, with nothing in return. Had enough and decided to cut them off. Now I kinda don't have friends, and it sucks, because I can never find people who are like minded, except on here. But I've read that making friends on here kind of sucks cause every one is toxic or complete autists... idk what to do...

You're there for the rest of that dog life. I'm sure your dog would rather die than lose you.

I'm a failed normie. A decade ago, I had friends, I went out, I could get a girl's attention rather easily (but couldn't keep it), and I still genuinely loved and cared about my life.

Now I'm completely alone, drunk in the middle of the day, bullshitting my way through an utterly worthless degree with no motivation whatsoever. My job prospects are horrible, my relationship prospects are non-existent, my dreams are dead, and my life is effectively finished. I will achieve wizardry in August of this year. All I can hope for is to either find the right combination of drugs to numb me out for the remainder of my life, or just bring it to an early close.

I feel that, have always felt that way. I just want to have my friend group of rejects again like I did in high-school. All my old HS frens who were rejects moved away in the middle of High School. Which sucked. But now I'm 22 and lost my only two friends ..